Things That Get Ya' Thinkin'!

I think about the things that have happened in my life in the past year and I can't begin to describe how grateful I am for all of the blessings. This baby has been one of the biggest blessings but I received some news about a cousin who wasn't so lucky with her pregnancy. It really got me thinking about how things work. Us (me and Thad) have KNOWN each other for almost two years unlike my cousin and her husband who have KNOWN AND DATED each other for over FIVE YEARS and yet WE are the ones who have so far been "luckier"; how strange, right?! It just occurred to me that pregnancy and life in general are such great chances that we take to make ourselves vulnerable to the possibility of the things that COULD and sometimes DO go wrong. But who really wants to think about all the negative before considering having a baby?! I mean if you start thinking about all of those things, well it's liable to scare the crap out of you and turn you away from the whole idea of ever having children. I didn't realize all of the things that MUST BE RIGHT for a woman to become pregnant, nor the chances and risks it really takes to go through nine months of harboring a new life. It makes me feel guilty to some extent that we are the ones who got "lucky"(so far) and that they are dealing with such heartache. What do you say to a person who has just lost a baby and you are carrying one? I think that is the hardest predicament I am right now because though my cousin and I are not as close as either would probably hope, there is still that family connection and that desire to comfort a loved one when they are in pain.
So that is where I stand right now. We have decided to go ahead and do the Nuchal Translucency screening a week from today so hopefully all will go well. The way we looked at it was that it is better to have too many eggs in the basket than not enough. We know also that this is just a screening and that it isn't going to be a 100%, so no matter what it seems like a positive to us. We are just the type of people who would rather be too prepared for something than get slapped in the face. But that is where we are right now. It still is frustrating because I have yet to gain any real weight and there is no "BUMP" yet. I am just ready to start showing so that people can quit looking at me like, "Are you sure she is really pregnant?!" Well I am glad that I could get some of that stuff off my shoulders. Diana