And so Begins the Month of April

Well today is the first of the month and it is amazing to think that we only have 45 more days of school left! I don't know where the time has gone with these little ones, but one thing is for sure, I can definitely tell that they have grown up so much over the year! Not only are they taller, but they are also getting that edginess that young children get which shows just how unique each one of them is! It is funny watching this class (my first year teaching) because I can't help to think what MY kid will be like in 5 short years and try to pinpoint which of the kids in my class it will most likely be like. There are some attitudes that I can see my child possessing that some of the kids in my class have (not all are good by any means), but then there is so much talent and already a great deal of intellect and I can't wait to see what the future holds! Last night was a really rough night for me. I have this routine where I take some kids home from school and then go home and lay down for a bit, play with the dogs or check my email and then wait for my husband to get home. It is just what I do and I know that instead of just eagerly waiting for hubby to get home I could be doing something productive such as laundry or dishes or preparing something for school the next day, but I just want him to be there when I am there and I hate spending so much time without him. Now to set this up let me tell you about how our day begins: his alarm starts going off at 5 AM and is usually snoozed until around 6ish. On the off ocassion where he actually gets up at 5 or shortly thereafter, he is typically gone by 5:30ish. So his day starts very early so he can get out to the oil patch where he works. Well my day doesn't start until 6:45 and then I prepare to go to school. This morning, luckily hubby was still there when I woke up and waited until after I was out of the shower to leave. (Usually he leaves when I am still half asleep and I tend to have a hard time remembering if he even kissed me good-bye!) Well his workdays have been ending later and later which means him getting home around 8:30 or 9 PM and then us hanging out for a good hour before I am ready to turn into bed. So all in all, our total time spent with each other here lately has been about 2 hours! (And that is pushing it!) So last night when he got home (after thinking he was leaving at 5:15 and then not getting a call until 8:30 to tell me he was on his way), I was totally upset and it was all I could do to not break down the minute he walked in the door. But luckily for both of us, I have learned lessons from prior relationships and I have heeded the one that tells me to not throw a fit but to just put on a brave face until he figures out that something has really pissed me off! (After all, fighting accomplishes nothing in the long run but feels damn good in the heat of the moment!) So at 10 PM I decided to turn in and figured he wouldn't be far behind because surely he got my drift that I was a little upset. Well I was right and shortly thereafter he got in bed and asked what was wrong and I could no longer do the brave face. It was just something about laying in bed and being held in his arms that let me have my first emotional outbreak from pregnancy. (STill no yelling or screaming just big alligator tears!) And it was over something that I know that I can not change (he works in the oilfield and makes wonderful money) but it was just wanting him to hear me out on not only not spending enough time with him but also about my fears for the dogs. (Something so petty!!) But all in all, things are resolved and luckily today is his last day of work for the rest of the week and we are off to NASCAR for the weekend. I think it is just one of those moments when we both realized how put off we were by the little amount of time we have spent together lately and are thankful that we have a release this weekend. (Which at this point I think we would both pay any dollar amount to spend that time together!) But anyway that is my rambling for today so I will go ahead and wake up the little ones and finish out the day strong! Diana