I have had so many thoughts running through my mind lately since the move and I thought I would compile some of them in this post:
*Being new in town and not really knowing anyone, makes me feel like a high school freshman the first day in a new school when I walk into the grocery store (insert comments and stares about a mom walking into the store by herself with 4 kids).
*I hate the fact that I am not a great "people person" so it's hard for me to put myself out there in order to meet new people.
*I hate that my kids have met no new friends here in our new town and that is kind of attributed to the above statement.
*I love the fact that my husband keeps me centered and that he makes me realize that it's perfectly normal to not be fake to make friends.
*I hate when people look at me with all 4 of MY kids and ask "Are they all yours?" And are amazed when I tell them yes and that me and their dad are still married!
*I usually leave finished laundry folded on the dryer in everyone's individual piles because I don't feel like taking them and putting them away (that's why I'm glad my new laundry room has a door and no one has to see it!)
*My kids are very technology-centered and I am not sorry for the fact that they can operate an iPhone, iPad and iPod better than most grown adults; technology will be a major staple in their lives and I have no problem them being exposed to it now.
*I feel blessed beyond belief to be able to stay home with my kids, but I so desperately miss the everyday adult conversations I use to have with some of my closest friends.
*I have regretfully let some of my best friends slip away from me since I have been a stay-at-home mom.
*My house is usually NEVER cleaned until around 10 PM at night; when you have 4 tornadoes following you everywhere you go and destroying everything you just fixed, cleaned, put away- I see no point in it.
*I will get my house more clean in the hour before we have guests over than I will the entire week prior to that!
*My kids (all 4 of them) are super easy, laid back kids and they make our lives as parents VERY easy!
*The best advice I can give to parents or people thinking about having a baby is to let the baby fit into YOUR life; don't try to schedule around them. They are little beings who adapt much easier to new things than we do!
*I used to have extreme "mom guilt" when I would take time to go to the gym or for a run.
*I no longer have that "mom guilt" feeling and I can attribute my losing all 53 pounds of baby weight from the twins to finally getting over that feeling; plus if anyone knows anything, the endorphins you get from working out are great for you!
*I am not a perfect mother and aside from my many moments of extreme patience, I have awful moments of loss of patience that usually result in me hurting my kids' feelings. (I'm working on it!)
*I have never had many girl friends and it is extremely hard for me to find true, genuine friends.
*I base my friendships nowadays on people that my kids are friends with; and sometimes that doesn't work out so great, but for the most part, it hasn't been a bad thing!
*I love getting to see the twins go through all of the different stages of their development and I have extreme guilt over missing a lot of Berk and Jack's milestones due to working.
*I can never repay my husband for allowing me to be a stay-at-home mom; it is the most rewarding, yet exhausting career EVER!
*In my mind, I guess I thought that moving here would magically mend some of my friendship
issues and I have been unexpectedly disappointed.
And there you have some of my inner thinkings for the day! News on the kids is as follows:
-Berk will not be starting Pre-K this year due to stipulations and qualifications that we do not meet.
-Jack will not be going to the preschool we had initially enrolled him in due to the fact that Berk won't be going.
-I will be "homeschooling" Berk and Jack this year to do some preschool/pre-k stuff on MWF and on T/Th we will be doing some stuff to put ourselves out there and hopefully meet some friends i.e. going to the library, doing gymnastics and hopefully getting in a MOPS group.
-Malin and Marin are both crawling EVERYWHERE; Marin is our "army crawler" and Malin actually gives the effort to get her belly off the ground and move her arms and legs simultaneously! They follow everyone all day long and have become staples in the kitchen under my feet! Marin is saying "mama, dada, bubba" and Malin has tried to say somethings but mainly just squeals in excitement or displeasure! Malin can also sit herself up and when you notice it, she has the biggest smile on her face because of her accomplishment! (Marin will sit up if you sit her up but has no desire to try on her own)
I think that is about all. We are busy, busy, busy around our house these days and I would have it NO OTHER WAY! My house may not stay clean all the time and I may leave laundry on the dryer (folded of course), but I wouldn't have it any other way. There will be a day when I will long for that messy house and lots of little clothes piled up on the dryer, so right now I will just keep it real!
